this song only makes the list because of its lyric: "started giving up on the word forever until you gave up heaven so we could be together." maybe i'm a little biased because a certain someone i know (fuck that bitch) who hates all things romantic and poetic really loved this lyric and she told me that that's how she wants to love and feel loved, and i agree to this day. it is on every pop playlist i have.

all i have to say about this one is that it is THE loser anthem, and an amazing anthem of modern unrequited love. this song has been one that i have related to time and time again so i couldn't help but put it on this list.

this song mostly makes the list because it is the song that introduced me to autoheart (screw stalker's tango), and because i have always interpereted it in a way that i'm not sure it meant to be taken. the song is about a man with agoraphobia (duh, though the lyrics state that he is in denial about this fact), who refuses to leave his house and basically just talks about how content he is with himself and his simple needs and simple plans. the reason i like this song is because if you disregard the title, it sounds more like a ballad of self isolation, and i think i have always thought about it that way because i discovered the song at a time when i was isolating myself from my friends and family due to a deep depression i had fallen into. though i don't relate to it so much anymore, it is here mostly out of appreciation for helping me understand myself during a tough time in my life and for introducing me to one of my favorite bands.

"why has constructing sentences become like pulling teeth? wiping dental records clean, is the carcass even me?" this quote isn't the reason i initially loved this song. originally, i loved this song because i understood the feeling that comes with believing no one will listen to your useless ramblings. then, i started to understand it is not only about playing the world's smallest violin for yourself(due to the false belief that everyone else will play it for you), it is really about the struggles that come with being an artist who is expected to create for an audience rather than for themself. both of these themes combined into one song make it one that i resonate strongly with, so obviously it had to make it this far up the list.

i love this song because i aspire to love someone so much that i am able to love them recklessly. living every day as if it's your last is something everyone preaches but very few people follow through with, and this song makes me feel the kind of love it depicts. i put it on this list because i hope more than anything that i will feel how this song makes me feel about someone someday.

the only reason this song is in second is because i don't relate to it as much as my first choice. but i still resonate deeply with the lyrics, less with the distinctions between wanting to be a "real man" and succumbing to the false affections of "little boys," for me it is mostly regarding the craving for validation from anyone who will give it to me (and mitski). this song also makes it this far up the list because of the sheer emotion mitski put into it (duh it's mitski all of her songs are like that BUT THIS ONE IS SO SERIOUS AND IT ENDS SO ABRUPTLY AND RAGGHHH) she deserves the world and the world does not deserve her.

this song is so relatable that it is devastating. begging to be saved whilst believing that no one will believe in your goodnesss enough to save you, going through bouts of craving relief and wallowing in your misery because you don't deserve to be brought out into the light. i hate to say it like that, all edgy and whatnot, but this song deserves the number one spot on this list because it is the realest, and the most raw, and in my opinion, the most beautiful.